May 2 06:00 (Thailand)
Yesterday was just another ordinary day. Bored, tired and worst now looking like a slowly decaying vegetable. Something noticeable has happened and that is a few small hard bump kind of eruptions have appeared. Not many places but mostly on arms, head and back. One on right middle finger to in such a location that can't hold spoon while eating.
I guess this is all part of healing process.
Took 2 x 1 teaspoon of turmeric with meal. One round of lime and baking soda. 2 large cups of Cinnamon and Licorice fusion. About 4000 mg Vitamin C. Today's contamination has been 1 cup of coffee and one glass of coke. No cigarettes. Made it comfortably to 2 litre of water.
The entire day I was in a grumpy, bad, sad kind of mood. On finding these bumps appearing it gave a feeling of 'rotting' or decaying. Once again I guess even the mood is part of the healing crisis. Usually I am of a calm and happy in my disposition. Positive attitude mostly and avoiding all negative or dragging down talks and events. I do maintain a certain level of healthy scepticism but don't over do it. Whatever the reason be. I hope at least the mood improves.
Sleep was erratic. Uneasy or rather uncomfortable. Through the day tried to engage myself but just could not focus and then to add to it, a patch of heavy rain disturbed the signals so had a terrible connection to Internet. Rain, did bring in some relief. Rain always does that to me. Thunders and lightning and heavy steady pour with occasional strong gust of wind. Drops of water flying through he window, on to my face, gave a bit of joy. I love rain. Tropical rain is fun. It is warm and usually if I can, I go out and get drenched in it. It simply energises me. Experience beyond words. Sadly could not do that. However it still make me feel a bit better.
Markers:
Pain: same no change from yesterday. (high but bearable)
Fluid discharge from wounds : Not extra ordinary like initial experience.
Alertness: not happy mood. Alert but unable to stay focused
Sleep: Uncomfortable sleep
Over all: I do see something happening. Nothing had happened for so long.
Misc: 1 coffee, 1 glass of coke and no cigarettes
Bowel movements: regular.
Urination: regular