May 06 12:00 hrs. (Thailand)

Yesterday was the most painful day of this new regime. Several reasons for the day going so bad. Could not complete any of the dosages. I was shaken up mentally a lot. Even today, it is the same. The condition was worsened yesterday due to a stunt performed by the hospice staff, which I never approved of. This particular guy, takes H2O2 in a syringe and pumps it into the boils and open wounds. It is the most excruciating pain you can ever imagine. First of all the skin is stretched like a balloon but not being able to expand, it hurts. To top it, H2O2 starts burning the bacteria and other infection and starts to foam. This is further adds to acute pressure in that boil or wound area. I could kill someone with that amount of pain. So far I tolerated this traumatic stunts, believing that it would help in getting rid of infection. Yesterday was limit. The shock was far too much. Entire day, I had fever, body was weak, could not eat, drink or do anything.

Even today, weakness prevails. I got up to go to toilet and was dizzy for some time before I could walk. I have been doing some stretch exercise and throwing hands in the air and kicking legs to help maintain blood circulation. However, since yesterday I feel, my energy has dropped to extreme low levels.

Given so much drama happening, I have decided to drop the treatments for 2-3 days or more. Once I recover from this trauma of pain, I will start with the regime once again. In the meantime, I hope to receive the empty capsules, some fruits and also protein food. It is also likely that someone will send me apple cider vinegar, not the organic type, it's the Heinze brand, provided he finds it in the local shop.

While thinking about it, I realised that if this treatment does not work, then the only option would be surgery and that is something I can't afford at the moment.

I am trying to keep my calm, with situation not at all favourable. No one to talk to, since no one speaks English here. I don't speak Thai. My only connection to civilisation was through Internet and that too is working extremely slow and erratically. I lodged complaint with the service provider, only to receive an answer after two days, 'everything is fine' please check your own equipment. My equipment is fine too. But these guys won't listen. It is matter of something they call 'saving the face'. It is big thing here. You can't confront anyone as it is losing face for you and the other person.

Well hope things improve soon else I will go crazy. This Internet problem, computer problem and all that is driving me crazy.

Someone may say GOD is testing me… for what? To give me more of this crap? Just because I am not complaining, I am bearing to my best ability, does not mean that I am enjoying it. If that's how GOD works, he is not funny. He needs to change his attitude. Stop giving pain to those who love him. Stop torturing those who don't complain and start giving a better life to those who definitely deserve. That is Me.

May 5 2010 10.45 hrs (Thailand)

Yesterday was one of those terrible days that nothing seemed to be right. Still things are not right. Internet is down and so is the notebook. Somehow I could make it work enough to post this quick note. Health and progress, also, bit tossed out. Hopefully soon I will be able to post in detail. Hope this one gets posted.

May 04 2010 6.30 hrs. (Thailand)

There seems to be a lot of sub concious resistance in taking turmeric. Maybe not. I missed second round once again yesterday. Even lime and baking soda. Then again, I was even worse then the day before. Yesterday, when the hospice staff came around for cleaning and dressing the wound, I noticed that a one of the big boils, one that seldom hurts but is always there, had punctured, discharging a great amount of red fluid (I guess blood, but could be mixed with some other stuff). Not something that I wanted to see in morning. The interesting aspect is that it didn't hurt or I didn't notice and secondly the size of that boil is still the same. I am pretty sure that it was that big boil as the trace of blood stream started from there.

I seem to have lost appetite too. It could be temporary as the weather has got hot and the food offered here is not particularly 'attractive'. It could also be result of the unknown resistance to taking turmeric. However, I am glad that I am getting some empty capsules soon and that should solve the problem of taking turmeric. I will be pushing it to maximum limit so as to make the difference.

I do find definite difference, for sure, while I am doing this regime. Particularly with Vitamin C. Suspense revealed, as I talked to my friend who sent me this Vitamin C in the first place. It is actually crystalline Ascorbic acid. Whatever, it has shown some positive results so far. Overall alertness has improved and is sustaining. Urination is more regular and so is bowel movements more 'satisfactory'.

A good friend has also sent me some advance EFT tapping tips. He is great and very much dedicated to EFT work and energy healing. I have done EFT level 2 long time ago. After that EFT has come a long way and I didn't keep abreast. Besides that, a doctor will never try and heal himself. Thanks to my friend I have a tapping protocol and I will be doing that starting today.

Some of those hard bumps are giving away in the form of dry dead skin scales, coming off. Smaller ones particularly are coming off. Little scrape and off they come, either discharging little clear fluid or nothing at all. No marks or bleeding. Simply coming off.

I am wondering if white pepper would have any positive effect like the black pepper, if I were to take it along turmeric. If not, I would be getting black pepper any way. It is matter of time. I need some stability with the boils and some energy to venture our to supermarket. Of course with someone accompanying me as I don't want to risk falling or fainting.

Sleep, was not so good last night. I was mostly aware about everything going around. To add to it, some stupid guys, in the neighbourhood, ARE playing loud music and it is 2 days 2 nights in a row and it is still on at this hour. For those who have no clue about Thailand, imagine a WALL of speakers, including some horn drivers, blasting away music with treble high and bass also high. I surroundings here is flat land. Miles of rice paddy or shrimp farms. Lots of greenery and trees but nothing high rise. My guess is that these blokes are about 1 KM from where I am and still their beats were affecting me and I could feel the vibration of low frequency bass … going bhoom bhoom bhoom a very muffled beat. I have known the effects of sound frequencies for many years. For 8 years I have been experimenting with brain tuning sounds and also Binaural. This low frequency bass sounds are definitely not healthy. For some unknown reasons, Thai people have a strong affinity to loud sound. They even modify their little 100 cc mopeds to make a hell of a noise. That is one against otherwise beautiful and serene Thailand.

Enough of winging, look forward to another day, better then past two days and also in getting some work done. There is plenty of pending writing to be done. One for this site, where I need to post articles besides my daily reporting. I need to post articles on other forums and work on promoting this site.

I will skip markers for today. In short, I am feeling more positive this morning after two days of miserable feeling. I guess that could be a turning point. Need to keep my mind calm and engage in creative work.

One more idea I got. I know some may think I am crazy, but I guess I need that supplement too. In absence of natural electrolytes, I am planning to get the powder and keep taking some everyday just to maintain energy levels. Wish I could procure more fruits and some young coconut but that is a big challenge. Electrolytes would be easier option.

So keep watching this blog, follow my progress, pray for my success and above all, have fun my friends, life is Beautiful.